Time Flies

Time waits for no man. Everyone knows this, yet few knows how to make full use of it. I have a little joke which has left a deep impression on me.

Everybody, Somebody, Anybody, and Nobody.

This is the story about 4 people named: Everybody, Somebody,
Anybody, and Nobody.

- There was an important job to be done and Everybody was
sure Somebody would do it.

- Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did it.

- Somebody got angry about that because it was Everybody's job.

- Everybody thought Anybody could do it, but Nobody realized
that Everybody wouldn't do it.

- It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody
did what Anybody could have done.

So, my question, did anybody do his job? haha..

Ok, back to the topic. "Teaching saps your mind, but fills your soul." One of my friend put this phrase on his MSN nick, and I found it appropriate.. When you are teaching, you will not realize how time passes so much faster.. How I wish I could have 48 hours instead of 24. Well, in the end, it is still a numbers game. Even if I had 48 hours, I would have wished for more. Men is greedy. So in the end, I can only blame our ancestors for regulating the number of hours in a day. Why do we even have days, hours, minutes, seconds? Indeed this is a tough question. As I am lying down thinking of this question, I ask myself what have I achieved in this 26 years of life? Some say that blogs are a waste of time, so am I wasting my time writing all these? Time is a commodity that we cannot stop it from flowing away, and as I type out these words, watching these words appear word by word on my screen, time flows past me. Tick tock, Tick tock... there it goes, even for you, my dear readers, you have spent at least 5 minutes of your precious time reading my post. And for that, I thank you.. Thanks to all the supporters coming to tag my blog every now and then.

If you intend to race with time, you can never win it. So the next question will be how do you make full use of it? If I have a choice, I would have hoped that time can reverse and I can make better use of it. Men is lazy. That is why we need deadlines..If we are not given deadlines, god knows when we will be able to finish the job! However, having said so, you either choose to cherish time or see it flow by.

Happy Birthday? Random thoughts

Happy Birthday to you, Happy birthday to you, Happy Birthday to Jenny, Happy Birthday to you! Happy 24th Birthday, dear sis..

All right, I shall start by wishing my dear sister a happy birthday. Another year older.. Come to think of it, 24 years since birth, everything seemed to have passed by in a flash. She is a big girl now, matured enough to make decisions on her own. How time flies. Dear sister, you have a totally different character from me, and you are someone who wants to earn big bucks, and is really "stingy". But it is a good thing cos you always make plans for the things you buy and for your future.. I hope you do. Anyway, you are someone who can't step out of the house without putting on makeup, so haha, I guess, it is a girl's right and privilege to make men wait.. Oops, no longer a girl, a lady.. Yar, in terms of size, I am almost double your size, and 10 shades tanner than you are. Just look at our family photo and you will know.. The guy beside her is her bf..



Strange that I can only remember the times which I bullied her and made her cry, and when she asked me if it was a right choice to just have one boyfriend in her life, since she thought that she should be given a chance to go out and know more guys before making a decision. It was a tough one, I thought, and so, I told her that whether you want to trial and error or stick to your choice, it is your personal decision. The most important thing is to ask yourself if you are happy with this person, and if it is, then why change?

These days, when I see my Sec 1s, almost every class, my dear students will come and tell me their "secrets", like this person "stead" with who, and who likes who etc... Though I know that they may not be matured to really know what is "LOVE", but it is difficult to drive through this idea. The media has portrayed such images that break-ups are very common in life, and you must really go and trial and error before finding the right one. But, how do you know he is the right one? Maybe the one after is a better one, or the previous one was already the best, but you chose to regret after breaking up? When you try to tell these students that they are still too young to experience what is love, they will then ask you back, " How do you know we do not know what is love?" Arh, indeed I do not know, cos even I am looking for an answer.

I see students happily "steadying" together, one who said that there is a guy who tried to ask her to stead for 4 times, and finally they got together for 1 day, before the girl decides that it is still better to stay as friends. Then I have students of different classes "steadying" together, and students who break and reconcile, break and reconcile. Arh... indeed Secondary school life is indeed a place where it is full of drama, just like TV.. I have at least 3 pairs of friends who have been together during Sec School and have since gotten happily married, and I am really happy for them. Those whom I have not discovered, may be more..

If people a decade ago can start to fall in love with one another, and eventually gotten married, why are we stopping the youths today from falling in love? Arh, there is a catch to this question. Responsible behaviour.. To fall in love, means to love someone responsibly, thinking of all consequences before he or she acts. As teachers, we have the responsibility to let students know that getting into a relationship does not mean getting too intimate..It is good to give it a try in Secondary school, but if you find someone better in your JC or Poly, or ITE, then what would you do? Break up and move on in life? Well, life is a contradiction and change is indeed the most constant thing in life. So, I do not have advice for you, you have to make the choice.

For me, if I know that there will not be any progress, I will put a stop to it, before I move on. You must know what you want before you can move on. If I know that if this is not the kind of life we can spend together, or the woman that I can love for at least the next half of my life, then I think I should give up. And all these, you learn from experience. And how do you learn? From advice, from others' experience and of course, from your own experiences. Love is irrational, or rather it is blind to make you not think rationally. Often than not, when you fall into it, and you know that it is not the path that you want, you will still choose to be blinded by it, rather than to face the momentarily pain after a break up. Sometimes, things are easier said than done. I can only hope that people will cherish whatever happiness that they already have and appreciate it. If you do not feel happy, move on. Happiness is never too far from you... : )

Money Not enough 2 and Batman: The Dark Knight

These are the 2 movies that I watched recently, and are movies that I would recommend if anyone would want to catch movies which sets your mind thinking. 1st of all, for Money Not Enough 2, another local production directed by our Jack Neo, and I must say that he has once again produced another movie that makes you think critically about the problems of our society, the place that we live in everyday. Alongside the movie, societal problems arose, problems that many would not want to confront face to face, problems which expose the ugly side of Singaporeans or rather normal human beings.

Some of these problems, like throwing our parents in old folks home because we only have time to make money and not time to take care of them; like parents sacrificing their time, money, effort, dignity, and even life to save their children, to help them overcome their difficulties; like wives and mothers staying under one roof, like sons fighting to cast their mother away even though they know that it is wrong to do so, like sons reprimanding their mother when she is begging for money to help them tide over the financial crisis, like children nowadays treat their parents like maids, like children who do not understand dialects, and do not grow up in a Chinese Speaking family, like people can do anything illegal to make money, like rich men who would want to squander their money outside looking for women, when they have a beautiful wife waiting at home..

When did people start to think that English is a more superior language than their mother tongue? When did people start to think that making money is more important than family ties? When did people start to regard the roots of all evil - money, as the only one important thing revolving around their daily lives, and forgetting about their loved ones around them? Why is it that divorce cases are on the rise every year? Why do people take things for granted? (hospitals must have enough blood supply for the patients) Why do people not treasure what is around them (family ties, love) until it is no longer around? Why do people even allow themselves to continue to make mistakes when they know that it is wrong to do so?

Because humans are flawed when they are born? Laziness, greed, timid to assume responsibility, and many others....Whatever this movie has shown, it has not only tried to "complain" about what the government has done so far, in fact it has surpassed that level, if you are still thinking that Jack Neo is just trying to portray the Singaporean image of always complaining and complaining about Singapore's government and its system. What do you think would do good even if he has complained in the movie? Do you think the government will change because of this? Then, if not what do you think has attracted you to watch the movie? I think that anyone who is staying in this fast-paced city should take a look at this movie.

Money not enough, true. So is money not enough for use, or money not enough to buy back what is lost? As the saying goes, You do not bring anything to this world when you are born, and you do not take anything with you when you depart from it. This is something so true that you can't deny, unless you are really "born with a silver spoon" in your mouth, which may happen if your mum happened to swallow it when she was pregnant. (Scientifically impossible).. Well, people laugh when I tell them that I teared twice during the show, which I am baffled. Why can't a man cry? Is it a woman's right? haha..

There are many deep truths that are portrayed in the movie, many of which are problems we do not want to face, but at the end of the day, the hard fact that slaps in your face will still be the same: You need to solve the problems that you created, and lamenting over them is not going to help. So pls cherish whatever you have.

Batman is another movie that uncovers the dark side of human beings. Everyone needs a hero, but only when they are in need of help, and when it doesn't clash with their personal interests. In times when humans need to make a choice, it is often when selfishness will start to set in, and they will try to push the blame to others, and also not trusting others. At the end of the day, the true hero emerges as the dark knight bearing the mistakes of others, letting others put the blame on him for crimes he has not committed. What Batman has done is only to help to preserve the peace of Gotham City, but its people has turned their backs to this hero. From hero to villian, Joker has made him see the loneliness of being a hero, and the sacrifices that he has to make to save his city. Indeed, Joker does makes people see that life is nothing but a joke, but Batman chose to be the butt of these jokes, sacrificing his name in search of the goodness in human beings.

Do catch these 2 movies, if you have the time. Batman is still available in malaysia though. haha..

溏心风暴

何谓溏心风暴？"溏心"指的是鲍鱼，有溏心的鲍鱼就算是一等一的好鲍鱼了。

而剧名中“溏心”二字意思是说一个温馨的家庭就好像内藏溏心的上等鲍鱼一样，不是轻易得来，必须经过多重工序，加入不同材料与心机，耐着性子才能煮出来。也牵连出现代人往往着眼于金钱利益，从而轻视亲情的社会现象。

这部电视连续剧终于播放完毕。我非常喜欢《溏心风暴》，尤其是它戏中的歌曲，非常抒情、感人。最喜欢当中的“MyLove will get you Home", 及"Vincent"。听说已经推出了第二部由同一班演员演出的《溏心风暴之家好月圆》，即将在新加坡的DVD店可找到！太高兴了。我的学生买来看完后，就会借我！哈哈！

话说会来，我最喜欢这个故事中的大妈，她不仅是家中的守护天使，还有着非常锐利的目光，可以清楚地看透人的本性。看着大结局时，虽然有一些仓促，但是却令我感动万分，还流下了男儿泪。哈哈，但我不觉得丢脸！其实我是个蛮感性的人，有时看到那些令人感动的戏时，都会不自觉流下眼泪。这套连续剧的曲折性、及演员的演绎真的让我折服。新加坡演员何时才能演到这种出神入化的程度呢？

常在心（故事中的女主角之一）是另一个令我欣赏的故事角色。我欣赏她对真爱的执著，也常在想自己什么时候也能像她身边的男生一样找到我的“常在心”呢？“还可以”（Pretty Ok, 故事中的男主角之一），最终守得云开见月明，最后与常在心在一起。 我觉得能为自己喜欢的人默默付出，无条件地不要求任何回报，只希望对方开心，保持笑容，是一件多么伟大的事。明明喜欢，但却只能做最要好的朋友，真是令人。。。所以说，故事的结局都是皆大欢喜的，尽管在现实生活中不可能像在电视连续剧中有着完美的结局。

人生如果没有遗憾，就枉费此生了。有遗憾不要紧，最重要的是自己觉得所作的事是正确的。我在刚过去的生日里许了两个不同的愿望，其中一个是为学生许的。真是令人感动，他们虽然被其他老师视为顽劣不堪，但我却喜欢教他们，而他们也买了个蛋糕为我庆祝生日；第一次有学生为我庆祝生日，因此我也为他们许了个愿。他们说：“说出来就不灵了。”所以，我就不说了。

另一个愿望，在家里及与朋友庆祝时许下了这样一个愿望。很简单，也很老土。希望她能永远快乐。这个“她”，可能是个虚拟的她，并还没出现，也可能是我曾经或现在心仪的女生。好了，Emo 后，是时候面对现实了。去改功课了！下次见。希望不会太久。

在这里附上这首歌《My Heart will get you on》 的歌词，一起唱吧：

插曲：my love will get you home
原唱：Christine Glass
歌词
If you wander off too far
My love will get you home
If you follow the wrong star
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home
If the bright lights blinds your eyes
My love will get you home
If your troubles break your stride
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home Boy
My love will get you home
If you ever feel ashamed
My love will get you home
If its only you to blame
My love will get you home

贴标签？Labeling?

English Translation below

你们在什么时候会看到一件东西上贴着标签呢？可能多数在罐头、日常用品、各类食物等“身上”看到标签吧。贴标签是为了让人们知道所吃、用、买的东西到底包 含了什么，是否对自己有利或有害，甚至是做为相互比较的依据。那么，我想借助这个我们天天都会接触到的看到的标签，来谈谈我们每天如何也用着这些标签来 “贴”在我们周围的人的身上。

每一天，我们在上班、上学的途中会遇到一些陌生的脸孔，或一些熟悉但却认不得的脸，或一些非常熟，简直就已经熟透了的朋友的面孔。不管是哪一张脸，我们的 心里都已经在不知不觉下，为对方贴上了一种标签。你们不相信吗？让我举几个例子。你有没有在路上看过染金发的男生，或抽烟的男人，然后第一时间认定他们一 定是什么三教九流的人物。如果对方穿西装、打领带，可能会认为他是个斯文败类，或心中可惜为什么这么个大好青年会因抽烟而断送美好的将来（因抽烟会给予人 们不好的印象）。你是否也有看过穿迷你裙或穿着性感的女生嘴里叼着一根烟，然后与男朋友楼楼抱抱？你是否有一个你本来以为是个品行良好、很负责任的朋友， 而你也为他/她贴上了好好先生或你最要好的朋友等“标签”，但他却做出一些令你意想不到的事情，或一些与你的理念背道而驰的事情来，让你非常失望？

当学生不交功课时，你是否也认为他们懒惰呢？当学生不把衣服穿好，你是否认为他们的品行有问题？当学生染头发（金色或红色，不是黑色！）、抽烟、打耳洞 （男生）、穿着露骨（露股沟、性感），你是否认为他们是坏学生，是无可救药了呢？当学生在班上和你顶嘴，你是否认为他们没有口德？可能现在的你还没有发 现，其实每个人的心中都有一把尺，去衡量其他人，但可惜的是，在对其他人品头论足的同时，我们忘了要自我反省自己的缺点，自己的过错。

当我们为其他人贴上标签后，就很难摒除这种偏见。就比如我有很多朋友因为中国人来新加坡与他们争夺念读大学的位子，在课业方面又名列前茅，所有的A +、A都被他们扫空，以致使自己不能以优秀的成绩毕业。又有一些则受不了中国人、越南人、及一些其他国籍的学生所用的口音，而对他们进行排斥。其实，新加 坡人有一种很奇怪的心理，我们有一种自认比其他人优秀，比其他人更高一等，高高在上的心理，因此当我们面对竞争时，往往由于养尊处优了太久，就会开始埋怨 政府。我们曾几何时会对自己的不够用功，去进行反省，为我们所拥有的一切珍惜而感到满足呢？当我们在为其他人贴上标签的同时，是否会想到对方的感受，是否 会顾及到他们的面子？

人靠衣装，佛靠金装。我们可能外表打扮得很好看，但若内心却一直在检视别人的过错，而不自我反省，那我们将在思想上停滞不前。我看到一班的学生一直在嘲笑、作弄班上一名稍微弱智的学生，让我觉得异常痛心。尽管我尝试与他们讲道理，但由于他们还是普通工艺的学生，他们还很难明白自己行为对于同学所造成的伤害。这种心灵上的伤害比肉体的伤害还要严重，还要深远。我刚看了一个中国中央电视台的节目，题目为“少年英雄”的一个颁奖礼，为的是肯定一群在四川大地震中奋不顾身救出同学的事迹。其中一位身患残疾的学生尤其感动了我，而我也不止一次流下眼泪。我再看看我们的学生，然后想象如果学校发生火灾，到底有几个会伸出援手来救出和自己同窗的同学呢？可能人要到了最危险，生死关头的那一刹那，才能真正发挥出自己内心深藏的“人”/“仁”性吧？这也是为什么有一位中四生告诉我，他认为这个世界的人都没有爱心。那，我问他，什么是爱？你们说呢? 我将尝试在下一篇给一个答案。

我为什么会写这篇短文呢？前天当我经过地铁站时，看到一群青少年穿着光鲜，似乎是中学生，晚上了还在外溜达，而其后我又看到另一群青年，女生在抽烟，男生则蓄长发，说话粗鲁。在我心里，我觉得他们似乎已经学坏了。在那一刹那，不知为何，我又问自己这样一个问题：为什么我要以这种眼光来看待他们呢？他们又没有打家劫舍，做出丧尽天良的事，只不过是一些受不了诱惑的青年想要享受周末夜晚而已。他们有自己的自由，一种无拘无束的自由，这就是年轻的本钱，做事不需付出太多的考虑，太多的责任。每一个人都有他们的强项，都有他们生存的价值，只要尝试去看到他们好的地方，我们看东西的方法将会不同，也将活得更快乐。

讲个小“笑话”。有一位学生告诉我，班上的一位女生认为我长得蛮帅的，让我听了也不禁开心了一会儿。仔细想想，可能不同人的有不同的审美观吧，因此只要你告诉自己，你是最帅最美的，说不定有一天就有人会来夸你了。记得，不要去看别人的缺点，尝试去发掘他们的优点，你将发现世界更美丽。

English Translation:

When and where do you see a label? Maybe mostly on canned food, daily necessities,and all sorts of food products. Labels are there to let us know what we are eating, using or buying, and whether the ingredients/ components are useful or harmful to our body, or even for comparison purposes. So, I would like to use this thing that we come into contact everyday - LABELS, to talk about how we actually use labels to tag the people surrounding us everyday.

Everyday, while we are on our way to work, to school, we always see new faces, or familiar yet unrecognizable faces, or very familiar faces of friends. Whichever face we see, we will unknowingly tag the person with a label. You don't believe me? Let me give a few examples. Have you ever seen boys with dyed hair, or are smoking, and at the 1st instance deduce that they must belong to some gangs or some bad boys. If he is wearing a suit, with a tie, hen maybe you will think that he is a scum in society, or wonder why has this young man waste his future away, smoking his life away. (Smoking leaves a bad impression to others) Have you also seen skimpily dressed girls in mini skirts, with a stick of cigarette between their lips, and hugging and kissing their boyfriends? Have you ever had a friend when you thought that he was someone of great conduct and a responsible friend, and you tagged him/her as a role model or your best friend, only to find out one day that he did something beyond your expectations, or done something that is contrary to your beliefs, and made you disappointed?

When students do not hand in their work, do you think that they are lazy? When students do not wear their uniforms appropriately, do you think that their conduct is flawed? When students dye their hair (gold or red, not black pls!), smoke, pierce their ears (guys), dress up scantily (revealing or sexy), did you think that they are ill disciplined students who are beyond redemption? When students talk back to you in class, do you think that they do not have manners? Maybe you haven't realized, actually in everyone's heart, we have a ruler to judge others, but sad to say, this ruler is not used to judge our own character. When we are criticizing others, we often forget to look back at our mistakes and reflect on them.

When we start labeling others, it will be difficult to erase this biasness. Just like I have many friends in University who have deep biasness with the Chinese from China PRC, as they come to Singapore to fight for the limited vacancies in University intake, and also doing so well in their academics, sweeping away all the A+ and As from the Singaporean students, resulting them from being unable to graduate from University with flying colours. Another bunch of friends just cannot stand the accent of Chinese PRCs, Vietnamese, and some of the accents from other nationalities, and so ostracizing them in the process. Actually, we Singaporeans have a very funny mentality, and that is, we have a mentality of being more superior than others, especially than people from other nationalities. Hence when we meet with obstacles or problems, due to being in our comfort zone for too long, we tend to complain about our government and everything around us. When do we ever blame ourselves for our complacency, lack of diligence, and do self reflection or feel contented with what we already have? When we are labelling others, do we ever think about their feelings, or care about their "face"?

Men rely on their clothes to look good, likewise for the mighty Buddha coated in gold. We can look nice on the outlook, but if we continue to judge and criticize others' mistakes, and do not do self reflection, then our mindset will remain stagnant. I saw students in one of my classes mocking and making fun of a student who is slightly mentally handicapped, and that made me feel very sad. As much as I tried to talk sense to them, but because they are from the normal Technical stream, it is difficult to make them realize the damage that was inflicted on the student. The emotional distress is more serious than physical pain inflicted and it can have a lasting effect. I was just watching a programme on a Chinese Channel (CCTV 4), and it was a show called "Young Heroes", celebrating the brave deeds of the young students during the Sichuan Earthquake. There was this girl who was handicapped, and she managed to save a friend out of the rubble and carry her despite being hit by rocks, and it deeply moved me. Among other touching stories, I teared than once upon the recount of their brave deeds. Then I look at Singaporean students, and imagined that there was a huge fire in school, how many would actually lend a helping hand to save friends or classmates who have been studying with them? Maybe humans will only react and show their true humanity / benovelence, during the most critical moment in life, when they face life and death. This may also be why one of my Sec 4 students told me that he thinks that there is no love in this world. Then, I asked him, what is love to you? Hey readers, what do you think? I will try to provide an answer in the next post.

Now, why am I writing all these? The day before, I was passing by the MRT, and I saw this bunch of young people wearing very "Ah beng" clothes, looking like Secondary school students, still out wandering around late at night; Then I saw another bunch of teenagers, girls smoking, guys with long hair, speaking vulgarities. In my heart, I thought that they have already turned bad. But at the same time, which I do not know why, I asked myself another question: Why am I passing such judgments on these kids? They do not rob, do not steal or kill, in fact, it is just some teenagers who cannot stand the lure of materialism, and whom wanted to enjoy their weekend night. They have their own freedom, an unrestrained freedom, and that is the biggest capital of being young. When you are doing something, you do not consider much, do not pay attention to how much responsibility you need to bear, nor consider about the consequences. Everyone has his own strengths, and a purpose to why they are here in society. As long as you take on a positive mentality to discover their strengths, the things that you see will be different, and you shall also live a more fulfilling and happier life.

Just a "joke" before I end. A student told me yesterday, taht her friend thought that I am actually quite handsome, and that did brighten my day. Come to think of it, different people have different perspective to the definition of "handsome" or "pretty", so you just have to tell yourself that you are the best, and who knows, in time to come, someone will be there to appreciate your beauty. So remember, do not look at others' flaws or shortcomings, try to uncover their merits and strengths, and you will discover a more beautiful world around you.

开学第5天！

（English translation below)

今天是开学第5 天。其实还有6个小时才正式起床上班。在这个新的学期里，我负责教1D，1F，1H，3F/G， 及4D，而我也负责学生警察的课外活动职务。最令我遗憾的是无法继续在2B班执教，但我告诉他们只要有缘，我们一定能在他们中三时再见！这次的班级最有挑战性的自然是中三的普通班，因为他们绝对不普通。哈哈。说真的，只是与他们接触两天，我已经能深深体会到新加坡教育制度下，一群被“遗弃”孩子的感受。因此我新的座右铭是：天底下没有教不好的学生，也没有坏学生，只有不能教好学生的老师。我希望我在教育界的日子里，能一直秉持这个座右铭，并且希望能“挽救”一些面对问题的学生。我发现其实中三的这群学生知道他们自己要什么，只是他们已经被“遗忘”了太久，没有人尝试去接触他们，去启发他们，去触碰他们的心灵。

可能我是个“怪胎”，喜欢享受与学生接触的时间，也喜欢陶醉于与他们欢笑。有个学生在MSN上告诉我，在这个假期会来后，发现我比较开朗，比较多笑容，希望我能继续保持如此。哈哈。可能多笑能让我显得更年轻吧！有位中四的学生说我讲话时比较紧张，好像没有准备。其实我要告诉她，这正是现在很多新加坡的华文老师所面对的一个问题。表面上，我们似乎是双语“精英”，但其实很多时候，我们说话时都会“词穷”，意思是想不到恰当的词语来表达我们想说的。为什么会这样呢？因为我们也是这个不完美的教育制度下的产物。其实，当我们在面对朋友时，常常在言语中中英混杂，甚至加入一些新加坡式英语（Singlish）。在面对学生时，要顾及到言语上的妥当性，及正确性，有时学过的知识一时无法显现在脑海中，因此说话时会有一些迟缓。因此，我很庆幸学生再次举出了我这个缺点，我也希望长时间的磨练下，能够逐渐适应这样的环境。

再者，有几位2B的学生都问我为什么没有教他们，也向我诉苦，发牢骚。我很高兴他们期盼我再去教他们，但事与愿违，但我还是希望他们能够继续用功学习。

其实在实习的日子里，我得到了“Credit”（分级为 Pass， Credit， Distinction），已经算是很不错了，因为我整班37位同学中，只有一位取得 Distinction（特优），因此我很满意了。但，由于我在教育学院（NIE）时，实在对他们的“硬邦邦”的授课方式不感兴趣，因此也没有多下苦功，取得了个及格而已。心中虽然有一些遗憾，但我认为我的使命在两年前已经不是在读书而是在启发人，因此我在2007年刚进入NIE 时，就接下了本地社区服务（Gesl）及海外社区服务的领队职务（Leader）。在这段期间，我很惭愧地称自己为NIE中文班的班长，因为我真的象是没什么贡献，除了举办一些庆生活动和卡拉OK时光外，也不是个很好的榜样。哈哈。在此，要感谢我的搭档，忆雅，为班上付出了不少努力。今年初，在我的实习期间，我又得准备及率领一队30人的国大学生到柬埔寨去当了22天的义工,因此我很高兴在学校里的表现没有受到太大的影响。可能这也是我为何在班上笑不出来的原因吧！其实，有很多朋友质疑我为何当老师，因为我太喜欢开玩笑了，不像会认真和严肃。哈哈。其实他们也是开玩笑的啦。至此，我两年来的4趟海外义工服务，也算是告一段落了。

接下来，我只希望能举办多一些到海外学习的义工学生团，让他们更能珍惜自己的人生。因此经过了这一些日子，我也得出一个结论：我不一定是一个最好的语文老师，但我要做到一个能让学生记得的老师，记得我曾经教导他们如何走自己人生的道路，就像在多个老师中，我印象最深刻的还是我的中学华文老师。希望我能达到这个目标。我也很高兴我得学生有抽空时时来看看我是否有新的帖子。谢谢你们的支持。我一定会继续在博客上分享我的心得，敬请留意。我看我明天再翻译为英语吧！好累啊！

English Translation:

Today is the 5th day of school, actually it is another 6 hours more before I wake up. In this new term, I am in charge of teaching classes Sec 1D, 1F, 1H, 3F/G, and 4 D, and am also in charge of NPCC as my CCA. The most regretful thing is not being able to continue teaching class 2B, but I have to tell them that if fate decrees, we will meet again next year in Sec 3. The most challenging class assigned to me would be the Sec 3 normal academic class, because they are really not "normal" kids. haha, seriously speaking, just 2 days of interaction with them, have made me realize under the current education system, how a bunch of "rejected" kids feel. Henceforth, my new resolution is: There are no unteachable or bad students, there are only teachers who cannot teach their students well. I hope that in my days as a teacher, I can continue to pursue this resolution and fulfil this calling to help as many "problem" kids out there. I realize that this bunch of Sec 3 students under me know what they want, it is just that they have been "forgotten" for too long, as not many tried to interact with them, inspire them or even touch their hearts.

Maybe I am a "freak", cos I enjoy the interaction time with students and like to indulge in having fun with them. A student told me on MSN that after the holidays, I looked happier with more laughters and smiles, and she hoped that I can maintain this look. haha, maybe laughing out more can make me look younger. A Sec 4 student told me that I seem nervous when I speak, and sounded like I did not prepare my work. In fact, I want to tell her that this is one of the serious problems faced by Singaporean Chinese Teachers (Locally born and bred teachers). On the surface, we may seem like bilingual elites, but at times, when we speak, we are actually stuck at certain phrases, and need to think of suitable sentences, or words before we deliver what we want to say. In short, we take a longer time to think and process what we need to say as compared to teachers from China. Why is it the case? Actually, if you notice, when we speak to friends, we mix English and Chinese, and at times, Singlish. But when we are facing and talking to students, we need to gauge the appropriateness, and the correctness of the things we say, and sometimes, the knowledge that has been learnt just doesn't pop up in your brain, so we pause more often when we speak. Hence I am very happy that my students pointed out this flaw of mine, and I hope that in time to come, I can gradually adapt to the chinese speaking environment and speak more fluently.

Next, a few students from 2B has asked me why I wasn't teaching them, and complained to me. I am glad to know that they had wished that I could continue teaching them, but since it is not heaven's will that we meet this term, I can only hope that they continue to work hard and strive for better results.

Actually, I got a "Credit" (Grades are Pass, Credit, Distinction) for my practicum, and I am very happy with this results, because among my whole class of 37 NIE batchmates, only 1 got distinction, hence I am grateful for this grade. But, because I really could not get used to the "boring" teaching methods in the courses, hence I did not really put in a lot of effort to study, thus only getting an overall pass for my NIE life. Though there are some regrets in my heart, but I thought that since my resolution since 2 years ago has changed from studying to excel in academics to nurturing and inspiring people, when I entered NIE in 2007, I took on the leader's role for a local community project under NIE - GESL, and also led a team to an overseas community trip. In my NIE life, I feel ashamed to call myself the class representative of my class, cos I really did not seem to have made any contributions, other than organising some birthday parties and Karaoke Sessions, and I was not a good example in class. Haha, hence, I would like to thank my partner, Yiya, for contributing her efforts for the class. Without her, we would have missed out a lot. Once again, thank you. At the beginning of 2008, when I was on practicum, I had to juggle with leading a team of 30 NUS students with my buddy, over to Cambodia to fulfil 22 days of community service work, hence I am also glad that this has not affected much in my overall performance in school. Maybe this was also one of the reasons why I had not been able to smile or laugh out in class in the last term. Actually many friends questioned about me being a teacher, because I really love to joke and crap around, and don't look like the serious type who can teach in class. haha, actually they are also joking lar. Henceforth until now, my 2 years of 4 overseas expeditions have finally come to an end as I embark on a new journey in teaching.

In the following days, I hope to lead more teams of students overseas, to let them learn about others and cherish or appreciate their life more. Hence, after all these time, I also came to a conclusion: I may not be the best Chinese language teacher, but I must be a teacher that will be remembered by students, remembered for how I used to guide them in their lives, just like in the many teachers that I used to have, the one that left a lasting impression was still my Chinese teacher.I hope I can attain this goal. I am also very happy to know that my students still take time to check out my blog. Tks for all your support, and I will continue to share my thoughts online. Do keep a lookout, and I will do the translation tomorrow. So tired. ( In fact, today is already saturday. haha)

我回来了。

是的，我回来了，已经有两天了。有一种淡淡的失落感。不知为什么每一次在一个海外工程完成后，都会有这种感觉。这次尤其强烈，就是不知为什么？说起来，我这次率领的这个小组，虽然不是我理想中最好的，但却是最团结的一组。虽然中途发生了一些令人遗憾的事情，但我觉得这次的工程让我收获不少。好长又好短的22天。长，因为我们在这漫漫22天中完成了许多许多，了解与领悟了很多很多，学到了好多好多。短，因为22天在一年365天里，微不足道，这短暂让人能喘息时间，不仅没让我充电，反而消耗了我大量的功力。哈哈。短，也因为我还没完全认识这一群PA X的好朋友们。真希望我们能有更多时间再一起来相聚。

现在，我的人生又要重新出发了，这次是一条漫长又艰辛的旅途。在这条新的路上，我将遇上许许多多莘莘学子，我将在无意或有意中影响他们。我只能带着一个目标继续前进：让他们知道活着的意义，及做人的道理。

好了，不要再说这么沉闷的东西了。其实在这次的旅途中，我发现我是个容易对人有好感的人。简单来说，我喜欢上了一个女孩。有人问：“你不觉得博客很假吗？因为你不会在网上说出你真正的感受。但我觉得这是因人而异的。起码我会尝试写出我的想法， 因为我觉得这是一个很好收藏回忆的管道。在若干年后，当你再读到自己的回忆时，也会会心一笑。

在去年十二月的旅程中，我觉得我好像喜欢上了这个女生，但这份感觉很奇怪。后来，我才知道原来我只是想要尝试培养出一种“喜欢”的感觉，因为我觉得这位女生很不错，是值得交往的对象。在这22 天中，在与许多人分享了他们的恋爱史时，我不得不同意这一点，感情是很难培养出来的，一定要有一样东西牵引着两人，或是让两个人在一起时觉得很舒服。

正当我在尝试找寻一样让彼此都能更舒服的默契时，我竟然在另一个女生的身上找到了这份默契。她让我觉得交谈中很舒服，又很想让人去呵护。只可惜她已经有了男朋友，而且这可能是一厢情愿，但我很珍惜这难得的心动。说真的，已经有很久没有这种感觉了。哈哈，没关系，我只希望她能得到真正的幸福和快乐。这才是最重要的。有一位朋友告诉我：好的东西是值得等待的。此时的我，只能再期待下一次的心动了。哈哈。今天，我发现有很多人在MSN 上写了这样的一句话：Yesterday is History, Today is a Mystery, and Tomorrow is a Gift, that is why it is called the Present. 我想了很久，好像在哪儿见过，因为今天我不止一次在网上看到了这句话。好吧，让我们努力迎接明天将到来的礼物吧！

好了，这篇花了一天来写。哈哈。