Back to Reality..

Have been away on a trip to Cambodia, Laos and Vietnam for the past 2 weeks plus. Then today I went to JB to splurge on myself. Spent SGD$200 in total, but I bought a lot of things for Chinese New Year and 2012. Think after this, I would not be spending much on clothes le. Enough.

Now I seem to be at the cross roads like a lost sheep. Not really knowing what to do anymore. Waiting is the worst thing that can happen to you. Now I am waiting for a reply from SIA to confirm the date for my 2nd interview. They called me on the day that I was leaving for my holiday but I couldn't make it for the interview date. Should I continue teaching or should I move on to unfamiliar grounds. Many things on my mind right now or should I say nothing? Because I have constantly been so comfortable in this world of mine, I am hesitant on whether to go ahead to more fulfiling challenges. Having great companionship with my friends on friday and saturday nights, playing soccer, enjoying at least a month of holidays every year, going to JB every other week to enjoy good food etc and of course the joys and laughter interacting with students are some of the great things that have happened to me.

Mundane work has become more "fun" and acceptable only after these elements have been added in. Just like a bowl of coarse brown rice, after adding on some delicious side dishes, your life suddenly becomes more interesting. And I have my parents at home and I am expecting a earful from my dad if I tell him of my decision to quit the service. I feel like I have so much more to contribute to the education system but yet I am a "wild" horse who has not met the master who can understand and manage it. My passion for character education is calling me to do more, yet my selfish heart to explore the wide world out there calls for a change. Mixed feelings dwell up my heart as I consider my options.

For the past few weeks, I have realized that to have complete trust in a person is a really difficult thing to do. Yet the word "trust" have made me learnt and realize many important lessons in life. One thing for sure, it really goes both ways for each other to have trust for one another. 用人不疑，疑人不用。Starting to rain again, time to lie on my bed and spend some time thinking again before I go meet Master Zhou.. Good night.. Probably my last post for 2011.